Those were some of the last words he said to me. Those are the words that keep repeating in my mind. Over and over and over. “You go out and get what you want.” I’ve probably thought that phrase hundreds maybe a thousand times since Wednesday evening. “You go out and get what you want.” A chapter in my life has closed. A chapter many people had opinions about, but a chapter that I don’t regret. I loved him. I still love him. And I know he loves me. But we both knew from the beginning, we were different… and we knew that would make it hard. We had to give it a shot. Two years. We spent two years together. And we were happy. He helped me through some hard times. I helped him grow. We had our ups and we had our downs, but in the end we always loved each other. It was time. We both had to face what we’ve been avoiding for so long. It hurts. He told me “You go out at get what you want.” I want him. But I also want something he can’t give me. He wants me. But he also wants me to be happy. So where does that leave us? Closing a chapter. Opening a new one. I’m going to take his advise… but not right now. Not quite yet. I still hurt. I’m still a little bit confused. We did the right thing, right? Can’t we simply go on pretending it would work out forever? No, we knew this was right. We still know it but that doesn’t make it any easier. So I guess I just have to take his advise, one slow step at a time… and be thankful for what we had.